should i be concerned?.. hm..

well.. i just looked at my happysleep "my progress" for sleep and it says "79%" under breathing and also "Watch out!".. so that confirms my last post about not being able to breathe. i'm not sure if how much you breathe has any impact on health concerns (it more than likely does- because a person needs to breathe in order to live). oh well. hopefully they find a solution for my breathing before something bad happens to me. it's probably why i used to have long tired sighs at random times of the day.. i'm pretty sure the reason why i don't sigh as much anymore is because i've been using my cpap. needless to say- i yawn a lot during the day and i'm usually tired. my therapist is coming in about 45 minutes, i actually feel a lot better after talking to her. i heard someone ranting about how people share everything about their lives online these days- the only reason why i have this blog is for my memory since i can't remember shit because of my traumatic brain injury. so, unlike a lot of people, i'm NOT "bragging" about my life when i share what happens to me and you're a complete imbecile if you think i am. bragging about the shitty ass parents and all the shit they've done to me.. not to forget the surgeries and conditions i have BECAUSE of them.. i honestly post for MY REFERENCE and to help me express my feelings and thoughts about things because no one seems to give a fuck. if certain sisters think they can relate to me in ANY way- they should ask themselves if they managed to graduate high school WITH HONORS while participating in sports when they were able (i'm sure she still can- there were fat girls on our team). she should ask herself if she also managed to work a job while doing ALL of this. also- if she managed to get her fat ass outta HER WHEELCHAIR even when instructed by doctors NOT TO. point is- if you're gonna try to relate to me- DON'T FORGET MY ACHIEVEMENTS. not just the shit i'm really not proud of- being your sister is one along with having the same mother from hell and i can't forget when you ran off to florida with your deadbeat boyfriend thinking you were so smart and JUST like me. number one- i definitely had better places to go besides floridumb. number two- i had a ROUND-TRIP TICKET (so i intended on returning). copying the things i regret doing does NOT make us the SAME. WERE YOU INJURED WITH A TBI AND PUT IN A WHEELCHAIR FOR AT LEAST 15 YEARS OF YOUR LIFE WHILE STILL GRADUATING FROM HIGH SCHOOL WITH HONORS AND THEN DID YOU ALSO TAKE NUMEROUS COLLEGE COURSES TO FIND WHICH JOB WAS RIGHT FOR YOU?! NO. YOU SPREAD YOUR FUCKIN LEGS AT 12 YEARS OLD AND GOT PREGNANT, DROPPED OUTTA SCHOOL IN JUNIOR HIGH I THINK (although- now that i think about it- 12 years old is probably still ELEMENTARY SCHOOL) AND NEVER GRADUATED. WE ARE NOT THE SAME. i was also thinking this morning while laying in bed before i got up about just why the fuck do my stupid sister and cousin care that i move? if you idiots figure you can just put me in charge of taking care of my mom when she needs to be taken care of- so it's not on either of you and because my mom took care of me when i was in my car accident.. let me remind you- it is a PARENT'S RESPONSIBILITY to take care of their child if they're injured and almost killed. it is NOT their children's responsibility to take care of their parents IF they have medical issues themselves and especially NOT if they have traumatic brain injuries and two other healthy siblings and a family who supposedly cares so much about their aunt. i'm not afraid to just shove her in a nursing home because i'm sure that's what she would've done for me if it weren't for my grandparents. SO GO AHEAD AND PUT HER CARE ON ME WHEN IT COMES TIME FOR HER TO NEED "CARE"! I REMEMBER HOW I WAS ONLY GOOD FOR A DAMN SHIELD TO BLOCK MY DAD'S FOOT FROM KICKING HER! my dreams along with the surgeries i've had to have as a result of it WON'T let me forget. selfish bum.